Mikuru: Nightly Hypnosis

I slept in my new bed, softer than cotton or whatever they made of; but I was able to sleep through out the long night, amazing how I didn't PDSD (post dramatic stress disorder)? Was I okay with my family dying? No, I wasn't, but there was this feeling I could never feel. I never learn how to feel it. Soon, there was this uneasy feeling, heavy, my chest was gaining weight as each second went by. Where was this feeling coming from?

I didn't know when if I was asleep or not? There was a thought that went on the whole night. Kill. Kill yourself, left the pain, if that doesn't work, kill the ones who caused your pain!  The thought went on and on as night lasted.
I got out the bed and put on the pair of shoes Shinji gave me. I stepped outside of my room (I was told ahead of time that nights here are cold and grabbed a jacket) and stared at the full moon. What was it, what was the feeling I could never feel?

"Mikuru? Right?" Sora? He was on my team, he glowed in the moonlight. I nodded a yes, as pieces of my hair fall in front of my face.

"It's best not to stay here too late, there are some demons will sense you body heat and attack." The muscles in my body began to tighten up, demons this, demon that, it was way too hard to believe that demons were living among us and who knows what else!

"Listen, I was freaked out too, my twin brother and I fought them before I came here."

Sora had a brother? He had a twin brother? Did he lose him too? If he did, I better not ask him if he's like me. But, his voice was some how, calming, that you forgot you lose everything just for one moment and you go back to being sad. Sora was so calm, he didn't even care if I was on his team now.

"Well, that's not import now." He said with a goof grin of embranchment.

"Sorry Kai is being a bitch." His voice changed into a worry voice like the ones you hear on drama shows on TV on late night Sundays.

"She's been, well let just say annoyed. She has a strong sense of smell plus she the only one who can make the best weapons for us." Sora said as if he was mumbling like an old man.

"I'm sorry, you said she makes weapons?" I asked a little curies now. A hell hound who makes weapons, that was new to me. I gotta say, it has to be neato (I've been saying that since I read The Lovely Bones four times) or at least getting to know Kai a little from him. But, what demon is so nice enough to make weapons for people.

"What's wrong?" Were the bugs under my eyes so detailed that you could stare at the frame for hours.

"I can help you go to sleep?" What did he mean by that? Was he going to hypnotize me? He took me back inside my room and lay down on the bed. Out this pocket was what look like a Chinese coin tied up to a piece of thread.

"This just will relax you. That's it."  

He started to swing in front of my eyes. The coin just went back one way and went the other way. My eyes just follow it, nothing was really happening.

"Just watch the coin and listen to the sound of my voice." His voice was calming, the coin was start to look a little different, it was giving off these waves in the air.

"You feel so relax, your body seem to be heavy." I wasn't just feeling relax, there was something else inside me trying to come out.

That voice I keep hearing telling to take my life. It was my voice, at least that what I thought? Or was it because I was feeling relax?

"As you start feeling heavy, you find it hard to think."

As I listen to him, my mind was slowly fading into  an endless abyss. "You're getting sleepy....so sleepy."

It wasn't long for my eyes to fight against this. I could feel this pain burning in my chest. Then Sora's voice was starting to feel so far away now. As if....As if...